Here's to remembering

I remembered…

I remembered I wrote about my feelings… my thoughts… my dreams and I remembered I why amidst the chaos of my world I found peace.  Writing was therapy. Writing was solace. Writing was passion.  The last entry on my blog was years and years ago and I’ve forgotten how I used to put an entry everyday. So why did I lose it? Same reason as I lost my way a few months back. I got complacent.  I got so wrapped up about so many things that I neglected the one thing that made me sane.  And so, I write once more to regain my sanity.

Ever since the popularity of Facebook and Twitter, where everyone seem to now write snippets of their lives on a daily, even hourly basis, we’ve lost the essence of writing from our hearts. I, for one, am guilty but that’s going to change. From now on I will make an effort to write more…. about life and love (and everything else in between).

To Jay,

Here are a few reasons why I remembered why I love you so much.

I love you because I do not fear tomorrow. I love you because each day that I know you love me too, I feel blessed.  I love you because the fear of not knowing doesn’t bother me.  And I’ve said it a thousand times in the span of almost 3 years but it has never diminished its meaning.  I love you because you are good to my family, my friends and me. I love you because most of the people I introduce you to tend to love you more seeing that you have a very good soul and a very kind heart.  You are patient, understanding and grounded.  You care about more people than yourself. But you never fail to love yourself deeply too.  You share even what little you have to others even to our dog.  You are disciplined and responsible. You never forget the importance of family.  You give me hope when I thought it has forsaken me. You give me strength when I have none to give.  I love you because the room seems brighter every time you walk in.  I love you because you are true.  I love you because you are forgiving. You know when to say sorry and mean it. You know exactly the right time to hold my hand and when to let go. You never hit nor curse out of anger. We have never had a major fight that lasted for day or a night. We never slept angry at each other. You always want me to hug you right before you fall asleep.  And though you snore like a boar and kick me like a horse in bed, I always fall on my deepest sleep when you’re beside me. I could go on and on and bore you. But most of all I love you because you make me want to be a better person.  Always.

Forever grateful,

Your Noel

Love letters and idealisms by Noel Abelardo